My Illusion

My Illusion

You think, but you don’t know. My thought is my reality of you and the physical is just the false imprint of you. I make what is real in my mind, holding you, kissing you. That is the aspect of my greatest dream. Having you in my arms as I close my eyes and nothing else is around us. The physical is gone and we control the world. No noise no worries just us in our own reality.

I’ll take away everything that is wrong. I’ll make you safe… I’ll make you cry. Joy isn’t nothing just you and only you. I don’t want days to go on and shed its false light upon my face without you there to touch it. You’re my life and dream, my thought and my pain. I never want that to end.

As I close my eyes. I see you reach for my arm and as I open them you disappear again into the void that is reality. My reality, my physical… I close my eyes and go into thought and there you are…

Thought is reality, the physical is the illusion.

By

Troy Bowden

Message in a bottle

I'm not on a deserted island but my soul is.

Trying to see you and nothing comes to mind. Have I lost your memory in the sands of time? It's been so long when our bodies were one and now I can't see you. I feel like your lost or that I am. That somehow we have lost the way or the love... I hope it's not that. I pray with my soul that this message finds you and that you understand and feel the same.

My heart is empty my soul is lost. I need you near, I need you to hold, I need you to smile. All those things I've missed and have forgotten and I need them back. Nothing works right in my world unless your a part of it.

I feel like the last person on earth. Alone and isolated with noting to joy and nothing to keep me alive.

Please find this message, please come back to my heart.

I place the cork on. Toss with all my hope and dream to see you again.

Troy D Bowden

June 26, 2013  

Finding

Finding

Do I myself know what love is?

Can I try and tell you, that you and only you will I will ever love.

Love for you is all I have but still what is it?

Many of times I would wake up and see you, just looking at you I would get an emotion of what I can't say or I don't know.

This emotion would just fill me as I watch you sleep in my arms.

It would be like something warm would come over me and everyone in the world was gone and it would just be us.

Us the only two left in the world.

Us and nothing else mattered.

I would always smile just watching you and being so careful not to wake you.

You mean so much to me more than the world and you have all my heart and every emotion is for you.

I can't see us not as one.

I can't see us apart.

Is this the answer, did I find what love is?

Yes I did it's you.

By

Troy Bowden

Vows

VOWS

I take you forever to be my wife.

To have and to love.

To give you a kiss when you cry.

And to love you till the day I die.

I will hold you in my arms and say I love you every night.

I will be there for you when you are sad or sick.

And will I treasure you in the night.

I will have you when I'm happy or when I'm not.

I will make love to you in God eyes.

For forever these vows I say yes to you.

Forever will I love you.

I do take your hand for the love to be my wife.

I do take your heart and place it with mine.

I'll make our love last the time.

I vow to you that every breath I take is for you.

That every dream I have you are there.

And I vow to hold you forever and love and care.

For forever these vows I say yes to you.

Forever will I love you.

Forever till death do us part.

For I vow my heart.

By

Troy David Bowden

Passion and Fire

Passion and Fire

In the end I will cry. In the beginning I will fear.

Fear for the love I have and the fire inside.

What will it do? What can happen?

Is the passion a dream or a pain.

I know in my heart I can love you.

Will the passion and fire control me?

Can I say yes to you?

I want you more then a dream and a wish.

Like a walk along a lake at night watching the stars hit the water.

I want you more then my life.

Can I say that. That I want a women more then my life?

The pain of this passion is unknown to anyone.

This is new to my world.

Like a drug was taken by me when I first met you and now this drug is the power over me.

Dreams of dreams and wishes of wishes you are.

And all in all you are the best thing in my life.

Write a book with me and start a new love.

Fill the book with our dreams and wishes.

And each new page will be a new day in love with you.

I can feel Gods hands on us as we walk in love.

A love so strong that walls will not hold it for our love can't be held.

Our love of passion and fire.

By

Troy D Bowden