Endless Dream

Endless Dream

Does time end in my dreams when I think of you? Magical are the dreams seeing you smile and standing there in love with me.

I may never see you awake but in my dreams you are. Alive and well with beauty of utmost compare. Sometimes I wish I could sleep forever and have you in my arms to hold.

Dreams, endless dreams I wish so we could make love a life time. When I see the day I pray for night and before I dream I ask God not to wake. May someday we'll see in the day and walk hand and hand but for now I'll dream.

I can feel your touch, I can feel your lips, so real does it look so real does it feel, sometimes I ask is it real or a dream.

I never want to wake again, I want a endless dream with you. I need to be with you forever in my dreams.

Dreams, endless dreams no more light do I want to see just you and only you in my endless dream.

By

Troy David Bowden

Rebirth

Rebirth

​Sorry can only be said so many times before two souls travel a different way. I guess that is why I’m writing this, I don’t want you to travel. We have been in many different avenues and many different out comes have come about and still I want to be with you. I know that I’ve not been everything that you have wanted me to be. I’ll be the first to say that is true.

​We fight; we say things that can only bring hate to the feelings of love.

​We lie; lie that can only hurt and cut into the fabrics of our hearts.

I bring this on myself. I’ve started the fights and the screaming. I’m the bringer of angels of death into our minds. I’m the evil and now I can see that inside… Sorry please don’t travel away.

I’m in love with you and I hope you see. See that even after all the fights and evil words that nothing means more to my life then you. Your breath is my oxygen and your heart beat is my pulse. I can’t lose someone as powerful over me as you… I guess that is the reason I pull away… your control and power. I need that and it’s hard to admit but I do.

I need you to protect me.

I need you to guild me.

I need you to heal my broken soul.

I need you to share my dreams.

I need you… No… I need us to love.

What we had is the past and please forgive everything that I’ve done. The past is just that the past and nothing more and I hope you can believe that. It’s over and in my mind it never happened. I’m ready for you and only you. I’m ready for the beginning. I’m ready of the new. I’m ready for us so we can shine out the darkness of the past and light our future.

I’m ready.

I’m ready for the start.

I’m ready for a rebirth of this love with you.

By

Troy D Bowden

Oct 31, 2012

Imagine

IMAGINE

I can feel my hands slowly going down your side. Our lips softly touch and our eyes lock in a moment of time. My heart beats fast and hard all I want is you. Your arms go up as your fashion style falls to the floor. We are locked into each others arms, all the love and passion now shows its true face.

Lust is the power tonight, lust of you making love to me. Your soft body slowly lies upon the bed calling me to come near...calling me to come inside. The world is no more only thoughts of you and I. Your sweet voice saying everything right, your look asking for more.

The feel of love from your body fills my needs and dreams, your soft kiss upon my chest closing my eyes of lust. Feeling and knowing ever part of your body, knowing the good and the bad. Thinking of you pressed to me, thinking of us as one.

Did I just imagine or can this be for real?

The kiss upon your body, the taste of your skin. I don't want to imagine but I want it for the rest of my life. The feel of your legs and your heat going up. Seeing you naked wanting me to make love. This is to much just to imagine but not to much to want.

Feeling you climax on my body, watching the sweat fall from our bodies into a pool of love.

 

By

Troy D Bowden

Behind the Mind

Behind the Mind

"The universe can fit into the mind"

What would be behind my mind? Would it be a world of a different race, a place where the world is one and I'm free to led myself were my soul wants to go. Behind everyone's mind is your world to get away, your time to be alone and your place to hide. Sometimes I'm afraid to know what's behind my own mind for I'm afraid to know what I really am, I guess most people do. Am I a killer or lover a hater or friend or just someone out in the world lost with the outcast?

What lives behind your mind?  A monster of evil or a child of God, or do you want to know? Do you feel unsure on what goes on back there, all the thinking without you knowing? All the planing and you don't even know on what, does this make you scared?

Does it control us like a puppet and play with are dreams or is it making are dreams as we go? No one will no what lies behind are minds and what goes on there. It is just part of us controlling the parts we don't think, holding the world in which we can believe to be. And holding are dreams so we can wish.

By

Troy David Bowden

 

Touch Me

TOUCH ME

Let me feel you near, let me look into your eyes of passion.

Let me kiss those lips of heat and hold you close.

Let me make love to you.

Never will I say no, never will you see me go. Just reach out your hands so I may touch you. I want to feel your skin upon mine. I want to look in those eyes and cry with love. Touch my hand and feel the warmth from it. Look into my eyes and see the passion that I want from you.

I'll love you with the power I have which are my soul and mind, the world will be yours and us will be forever. I know us will be good, I know us will be strong, I know we have the power to stay. I still want your touch I still need your love so give me what I ask and make me smile.

Together in the touch, together in the passion, together forever in love.

Hold the touch and never let it go.

Cry with my soul.

Make love to me, never let me go.

By Troy David Bowden

Power of Love

POWER OF LOVE

In the end I cry, in the beginning I fear.

Fear for the love I have and the fire inside.

What will it do, what can happen?

Is the passion a dream or a pain.

I know in my heart I can love you.

Will the passion and fire control me?

Can I say yes to you?

I want you more then a dream and a wish.

Like a walk along a lake at night watching the stars hit the water.

I want you more then my life.

Can I say that. That I want a women more then my life?

The pain of this passion is unknown to anyone.

This is new in my world.

Like a drug was used on me when I first met you and now this drug is the power over me.

Dreams of dreams and wishes of wishes you are.

And all in all you are the best thing in my life.

Write a book with me and start a new love.

Fill the book with our dreams and wishes.

And each new page will be a new day in love with you.

I can feel Gods hands on us as we walk in love.

The love so strong that walls will not hold it for our love can't be held.

This power has taken control this power of love.

Nothing can stop it only you.

Stop the feeling of not having you and the pain of seeing you die.

Stop the fear inside me and take control of this power.

Win the battle for me for I myself am lost to this over taken.

Will never give in and show that you and I can over come this power.

The power of love the strongest in the world we can win this over.

We can make this work of ourselfs.

We need to, we must.

I can't lose you and I don't even want to think if I did.

Hold this power and make it work for us.

Then we will know how powerful our love is.

How powerful our love is together.

By

Troy David Bowden

One Night

One Night

One night a dream of never wake.

Hold you deep within my soul.

Look into my eyes and let your world fall apart.

Knowing that tonight will never end in my heart.

My soul will be on fire for you.

My love will burn and light will only shine on us.

Showing that we are to be.

One night of a wish, how bad I want it to come true.

Wishing that you would be there.

Running to my arms.

Holding me with no end.

Thanking God that we have this one night in heavens eyes.

Crying knowing that the night will end.

And then smiling knowing I have you right now.

One night.

One pray.

One dream I had of you and I.

Lying on the beach and letting the waves be are song.

Smelling the sea and kissing you.

Putting the world aside just for one night and making us the only two alive.

And making love as heaven gives us a bed of sand.

One night is all one needs.

To show magic in the air.

To take away any pain one may have.

One night in the eyes of love.

The power only two true people can make.

The passion and heat.

The fire in the eyes.

The feeling in the heart.

One night can make this all be.

One night I pray.

One night to never end and for it to last my life time.

One night to put a stop to the world and have us to be.

One last kiss.

One last look.

As the sun will slowly rise again.

And as my dream of one night with you ends.

I ask God for more to come.

More of the love and more of the feeling.

The touch and look.

And the hope that we may come again.

Into each others arms.

And lie on the bed of sand.

And make love all night.

One night is my dream.

One night and you have my heart.

One night and you have me.

We may never know how things are to come.

But in our minds we know that we had the most magical night.

The most passionate of nights.

Now I see the sun and you slowly go.

And my tear falls to the sand.

With that tear is my dream of one...

One last night with you.

My one and truly love...you.

By

 Troy David Bowden

Opening Arms

Opening Arms

Don't be afraid for I am here. The one to hold you when you fear. I'll be by your side walking your road as one. Don't be scared to come into my arms, don't be afraid to cry. Tell me your world let me hear your song let me see the inside of you.

I reach out my arms to you forever to come into and cry. And to stay with me in love. Opening arms and I'll come in when I'm sad and happy. You'll do the same as I for you and our love will grow.

Never will I hold back my feelings for you.

Never will I see different.

Never will I stop loving you as I do now.

Share with me your joy and pain, cry with me when I cry to. Smile with me when I look into your eyes. Love me as my heart does for you. I'll share all my notes of life if only you share back and we'll climb the ladder together.

Forever in my life I'll share everything I have with you and I'll be here with opening arms waiting for you.

By Troy David Bowden

Fall in Love Again

Fall In Love Again

 

Sometime I can look and see the smile I once had of us holding hands.

Running with the wind and not caring about the nothing in today’s world.

Love was free and peace was in our hearts as we talked and loved till the morning came.

I couldn’t help but fall for you the way you look and see things.

The touch of your hand and feel of your lips.

The special look in your eyes as you say you love me.

The emotion of the kiss.

All in all the memories of us together.

 

Time has away I guess of taken two souls apart.

The love slowly goes and new ones show.

The passion gone the spirit cold.

Dreams can only replace a small part of you.

Other loves can only give me a small feeling of you.

 

True love only comes once and for me it was you.

Everything about you and everything you do.

I would die to have you once again in my arms.

And to wake up to you again would place a smile in my heart forever.

 

Time has away I guess of taken two souls apart.

But time can never… never take away my dreams the only last part of you.

 

Will I know to love a woman as I did for you?

Will I know how to kiss, as I would kiss you?

Will I know to care?

Hopefully someday… someday far in the distance of time.

When I can look for you and find you.

When I can fall in love again.

 

By Troy David Bowden

Show of Love

How can I show you love

 

Show of Love

You know in my heart I love you but how can one show love? You are the true part of myself and a gift from God. Only dreams I had of you wishing you would come to me and now they are true. Love is a word so far and wide that it takes up the world and more, so how could I so small to the world show you what I mean?

My heart is yours and I wish I could show you that, my dreams are about you but you don't see them. Every breath I take is another thank you to God that I have you, and a tear from my eyes is another emotion of you.

Love so small of a word of what I'm feeling toward you. Gifts just to show you the outside of what I mean but there is so much more. So much more as in soul, you make me one with myself and at peace. You cover my fears with your arms and your kiss takes away the day. The touch you give me is unlike anything I've ever known. So soft and warm it's like the sun just shining upon my face.

If only I could show you what I mean you would understand but love is the only thing I can come up with. And to show you love is just seeing the things we do everyday, talk, hold hands, make love but so much more I want to show you but I cannot bring them to words, they are inside of me inside my soul. In my heart all my feelings for you are there. Just know that I myself love is just a small word of what I'm feeling for you and forever will it last because I love you and if that is the only way to show it and say it so be it.

By Troy David Bowden

Short Time

Short Time

 

So little time was spent together, so little time was done.

Did our love grow with the few short times we held each other…I don’t know.

But for me I loved a lifetime.

So short of time with so much we had to do and so much more love to give.

You did tell me of the ill and of the time we would have but I didn’t know how much I could fall in love with you in that short time.

The nights on the beach just watching the stars shine in the heaven and talking about nothing new.

The kiss forever that stopped time and how odd it was to know that our minds were on the same key.

I don’t want to think of you dead but more alive then ever before and I know with my heart that you are watching me because I feel your love in the air.

But I can’t stop the pain and sadness of not holding you again, not kissing those lips that are red as a rose and not touching your soft skin as we lie in bed sleeping in each others arms.

I fell in love with you that warm day and I still love you now. I miss you my love…forever.

 

By Troy David Bowden

Blood of the Torment

“Death would be better then this torment”

Blood of the Torment

This is killing me, everyday I see you and there is nothing more of what I want then to hold you. There is no heaven there is no hell nothing matters just you and I can’t have you. It’s pain… Everyday this pain stabs me killing every fiber of my soul. Can’t kiss you can’t hold you can’t make the fires of love with you and still everyday there you are… looking at me. Melting me with those eyes and there is nothing I can do about it.

The torment is never ending and this pain wants nothing more then to scream, to yell, and to say enough is enough! In the normal world we or I know that the torment is to last. I can not live in that world much longer. Can’t breath when your around, can’t think, can’t look at you without the torment coming in.

No peace…

No joy…

No love…

I’m nothing more then a broken shell without having you near and with me and this can’t be. There is an ache a stabbing pain inside my gut wanting you, needing you, and desperately thinking of our bodies naked together… And all I have… All I have is a dream of it!

No person should hold this torment and let it build. No one should feel this stabbing for its killing me. I can almost see the blood this stabbing is causing and nothing can fix it. Why! Oh God why! I must hold on.

If I can dream, then in it we are together that is the hope I must hold on to. There has to be hope, there has to be a way to your heart without all the doors closed.

For if there is no hope then I’m afraid for myself that soon I will feel and see this blood of the torment.

By

Troy D Bowden

Oct, 25, 2012

Realize

Realize

For time doesn't end, it just stands still for you. Nothing moves and nothing talks and everything in my world stops and only you are to be. A magical figure, a magical dream. A figure of love and joy is what you are.

You put a stop to my heart every time I see you and I take a quick breath of air thinking it is my last. A shock to my mind is what you bring me, a wake up call to my soul is what it is. Nothing is like you, and nothing will ever be.

Have you ever seen a picture of nature and you pray to God never to end this moment of time, that is what I say every time our eyes meet. You are the still of the night and the light of the day, a shining star of hope I wish on and pray.

I've never known this to be. I myself falling in love, longing for a kiss and wishing it never to end. I feel like a kid for the first time again, playing in the fields of grass and climbing trees till the setting sun. I'm in love with you, that is true. I now understand that you bring myself together and hold me in place. A place where we can be together. A place where we can be in love.

By Troy David Bowden

Your're Not Real

You’re Not Real

                You don’t know what it is like to love someone and think that it isn’t real. I’ve loved you in my heart for so long that it feels like it has been an endless time. Now I’m with you and in my heart this cannot be, this cannot be real. I’ve wanted nothing more than to love you and be with you that every day I see you feels like a dream. Like I can reach my hand out to you and have it move through your soul.

                It’s like a cloudy head of fog that I can’t get away from. I’ve wished this love, I’ve dreamed of this love and to have it now… while words cannot say or even form in my mouth as to how I feel. You are a dream, not real.

                I haven’t done anything to welcome you in my soul. I haven’t wished enough times to have it come true. I must be dreaming but if so never do I want to wake because this is heaven. This is how it should be, us and nothing else.

                I see you standing there and still I should be thinking that any moment I will wake. If I do wake I know I will cry and I’ll never be the same as I was before. I’ll be a wreck of a broken soul and never will that be fixed. I can say that if this is a dream and nothing is real then for once I wish this dream to come true.

                There comes a moment when you touch me that the fire starts to burn and I feel. This is the moment where I know this is real. When I start to feel when I start to cry when you walk away or when the joy crashes over me as you hold me. The endless love I feel that is how I know you are real…

                For without those emotions then this will only be a dream.

 

BY

Troy D Bowden

Oct 23, 2012

Alone

Alone

 

I can’t love a soul; I can’t have a dream at night.

Sometimes I cry till no end is at hand and sometimes I pray that you are still here.

I still see the days when we were one and nothing else mattered, the love, the passion and heat.

Forever lost in this void of time.

Healing a wound that is at the heart will never be fixed.

I’ve lost all I know and all I ever truly loved.

Broken like glass is our love broken through out time.

Will I go on in my time, will I feel the same as I did with you.

Will I ever stop crying in my heart?

The days are hard without you and the nights long.

I fell in love with you from my heart.

Now the pain and fear the loss of my heart not knowing if I will live or die.

I pray ever night for you back like some dream to come true.

But yet still you are not there when I open my eyes.

And slowly I see that I’m alone again.

 

By

Troy David Bowden

Love of my heart

Love of my heart

One touch in my heart and one touch of my soul.
One dream and it is of you, my lover of my heart.
Will this dream be?
Will I know of the one touch?
Will I know of the kiss to be?
Many of times I've cried wondering of this thought...you and me.
And always I'm sad, sad in my heart.
My dream so real of you and nothing comes to me in the day.
Night is the only time I see you.
And at that moment I can feel you like you are right here,
in my arms.
Days are long and the time doesn't move and it seems like forever
till I sleep.
And as the night comes you are there, standing with open arms for my
heart.
No one will know of my dreams of you.
And sometimes I do wish not to wake again, for that is the only place
I know of you to be.
But if I die then I'll never know if you lived.
And I would have never found the love of my heart.

By

Troy D Bowden

Goodnight Kiss

Goodnight Kiss

I see you at night alone in your bed of dreams.
Nothing is there to warm your soul as the night winds blow.
Nothing not even my heart to take your fears away.
You roll and turn, your arm reaches for nothing and I fall.
I see you cry yourself to sleep in hope that I will come.
Come to clear your eyes of the pain and cold nights.
For I blow a kiss goodnight in the wind and may it carry far.
Far to your lips to shut your eyes and sleep goodnight.
My kiss comes with all the love I have.
My kiss comes from my heart.
And that night when you sleep, I'll be there to warm your heart.

BY

Troy D Bowden

True Love

True Love (a note to the girl)

Tawas till now I saw the fire in your eyes.

Tawas the kiss of joy you gave me that opened my heart to your love.

Now all I dream and see is the special smile you have.

 

I was a lost person before I knew you.

A lost soul just walking the endless road without love.

A man just going around the world having false loves here and there.

 

Now I have you, taking the lost away and making me free.

Free to love you, as a women should be.

Held and cared for, and loved forever.

Touched with every soul and piece of my heart.

Kissed like a angel with fire from my soul.

All this I will give to you.

 

You have taken me away.

Away from the false loves that have tried for my heart.

Away from the pain of not knowing true love.

Away from the fake world I lived in.

 

And now all I have is you.

I am Thankful to God that I do.

Without you, I fear what I would do.

 

I am forever in love with you.

The blood going through my veins, pumping though my heart

Is telling the rest of my soul that you and only you

Will be forever the one.

 

The one to kiss me goodnight.

The one to hold my hand.

The one I say I love you.

The one I will die for.

The one who has all my passion and pain.

 

I fell in love with you the day our eyes met

For the rest of my life- I will keep on loving you the same.

May our souls be forever in love in the skies of heaven.

Not let a day go that I don't say I love you.

Nor let a moment go that I don't kiss your lips and hold you in my arms.

 

I'm in true love with you my love.

I say thank you for opening my eyes to pure love.

 

By

Troy David Bowden

Written Sometime in 1999

The WANT

The WANT

Can a never less ending dream come true in one’s own universe?

Can heaven and hell fight on an internal plan?

A struggle a fight a blistering dream in the utmost reaches of a human soul.

I want the need, the fear, the blood the passion.

All I want all I need, I crave it, I want it……….

There is nothing more than this I want in my life the dream the passion... I need this love it pours in my veins.

This is what I see and feel when I look into your eyes. Everything above is what I envision, want I crave and breathe when I hold you near. There is no more chaos in my world, no thoughts, no emotions… Only the love that I feel.

There is nothing... nothing! Not the dreams of being alive... Nothing I say. Forget everything there is nothing but you. You are my dream... My soul...

Restless!

No one can understand, nor will they care. You have zero idea when you read this what goes on inside one’s mind… one’s heart.

You think bleeding these words on paper is for show. You weak minded fools…

There is always more to the story.

By

Troy D Bowden

2012

Book of Past

Book of Past

I can look into your eyes and forget about the one. It was so long ago when I

was in love and my mind was stuck on the person, that I couldn't think of

falling in love again.

You knew of the love that I'd fallen for and you were there to hold my hand. I

still think of the love as a book to the past but you are my future.

I have you now to love and in my life, past love was like a sand on the beach

taken away by the waves.

The look of blue heaven as I gaze into lost eyes listen as I tell you a story to

your heart. No more of lost love will travel my way. Our two hearts will stay as

one forever I pray.

We are a new start in the book of love and are page's will turn fast, but I've

closed the book to the past and I'm looking at my blue heaven, my dream, my

love, you.

By Troy Daivd Bowden

Gabe

Gabe

​Long ago in the time long forgotten around the time that most people trick or treat there were evil souls about. Some killed just for joy and pleasure other sacrifice animals puppies, cats whatever was around to steal there powers one might say… This is what I crave the power.
​Folklore would indicate that an animal sacrifice with the throat cut would release its spirit into the air and the one doing the killing would inherent the power.

​I have begun my plan with all the tools and alter in place deep within the woods.
Some may say that words need to be spoken but I believe in the passion of the kill and with that passion comes the want.
My sacrifice moves in its bag not knowing what is in store. I reach in and pull the puppy out to study its figure and hope that the spirits of the dead approve.

​It looks at me…

Warm and soft there is love in those eyes, what a wonderful creature. It licks my nose and feelings of happiness feel me. I must kill this creature, I must take its power but something is wrong. Faster then an airplane my heart pounds in my chest and I want this creature to live.

​I don’t want to kill this little joy but to hold it and love it. To keep it safe from the dark and the evil that once I was with. Never will harm indoor this puppy, my puppy. Is this the power that I was searching for? It must because nothing I’ve ever known never made me feel this way.

​Puppy… No Gabe. Gabe I will call you and you shall be forever my friend.

By

Troy D Bowden

Oct,21, 2012

The Preacher the Prophet the Teacher

They need to listen for giving them the alternative is something they will not like.

The Preacher the Prophet the Teacher

I’ve been trying now endlessly to preach to them to tell them of their upcoming and soon future and they don’t care. Mindless they are to phones and social groups that when the obvious is put forth they pay it no mind. They have mocked me and shut me out to the point that I’m Jonah and the whale and soon my God will spit me out.
​Countless times I’ve told them of the Aries Zodiac Sign that will rain fire and destroy the land. Of the demons that will walk the land and eat the souls of the living and still I’m nothing more then a plague upon them. Their pay day is coming and they will be blind to see it.

Growing up I never gave much thought as to who or what I will be or become. Mostly back then it was girls who had diseases and toys ruled the world. Not once were thoughts of death or destruction willingly entering my mind, until the visions came.
Like a revolving automatic door they came into my mind. Thoughts of war, destruction, plagues and famine and fire…the endless fire. Messages came to me on what to say and how to control but they will not listen.
​
​It’s a simple message that I say. That soon everything known to man will be judge and judge on the out come of ones self. That the path they are going is only the path to death. The path that will open the doors to those demons and to the destruction that is in my mind. Is it so hard to love and live? So hard to enjoy and see with open eyes and not to me mindlessly controlled? Is that what you want… domination?

​They will be, they will be controlled and dominated by him and he will give them false joy and hope and they will buy it all and believe that’s it is right. And they’ll have brought this on themselves for it is coming… their end… their time.
I hope they ask their God for forgiveness for it is too late nothing will stop him. The sign of Mars is upon them all and death is knocking at their door. I’ve preached and taught and maybe reached a few but that isn’t all of mankind.

​May their God save them but I’m afraid that all this will fall on deaf ears and back must I go into the whale, forsaken and forgotten as it was meant to be.

By

Troy D Bowden

Oct 21, 2012

Coming back to you

Coming back to you

​In my heart this is heaven, just us holding hand and hand. This is magic in my soul; you will never know what you mean to me. We just walk down this road with passer buyers knowing no different and we are in love. Nothing can change this nothing can destroy our love our one and only true singularity.
​You smile and a warm feeling covers my body. We stop and look then kiss…
What was that…What is it?
Loud… Ear piercing sound…
I look at you and see shock. “What is it my love” but you return no words.
You cling to my body as I wrap my arms around you. I feel coldness and wet from your back. I pull my arm from around your back and see… blood…no…no…NO!
No this can not be, no…no… oh God no. “HELP!”, “PLEASE SOMEONE HELP!”… No one to hear as I see the crowd running in all directions, just us remain.

​There is a moment in time that never leaves a person mind. First kiss, first time you have made love. Things like that are burned forever in your soul. As well as the death of someone that has your heart.

You gazed up to look into my eyes. You didn’t have to say a word your eyes told it all. Of all the joy that I gave you as well as you given to me. I could see all the memories in your eyes. The trips we took the laugher and even our dreams.

I don’t think for any remaining seconds of my life that I could love again or even for that fact would want to. You were and are my soul, the last piece to my puzzle and my puzzle isn’t complete without you. I was there holding you as you died and every time I think about that day of you getting shot… I cry.

I know what I must do to stop crying to stop my pain. Honey if only you knew what it was like to hear your last breath and watch your eyes close. It was closing our book our novel that I wanted to last forever. I know what love is and you had shown me that and now it’s gone forever.

Painless it will be, I won’t suffer honey so don’t worry about that. Just look forward to when we will see each other again in some unknown plan…

The barrel is cold… I wonder if I’ll hear that ear piercing sound…

By

Troy D Bowden

Oct 21, 2012

Words of Pain

Words of Pain

Can you see the pain you do when you hurt my heart.

It's like a knife you push though my heart.

Words can kill a love that has grown.

Words can be a end.

Just step outside yourself and see what you do.

You are killing are love, you are killing my soul.

I don't want this to end but you are making it hard.

I'm in love with you and no one else can't you see!

No one in my world matters but you but those words and the pain I don't know how long I can stay.

Just look back at our love, just look back and see.

The first time I looked into your eyes and you took me away.

The soft kiss you gave me under the stars of heaven or the first time we made love in Gods eyes.

Think back to the first time you opened your eyes and I was right there to say I love you.

I still know all the words to our song that we kissed all night to.

We've been in love for so long, now you don't think I love you anymore but that is so far to be.

I need you to stop and know that I love you very much but please, just please end those words because they are not true.

I will go as much as it will hurt for I can't stay so please end the words for our love can stay.

By Troy David Bowden

Carpenter

Carpenter

The gates can finally be open…

Condemned by my own people, for they do not know what they are doing. I can feel the red liquid pouring down my back as they beat me. Father do they understand? Do they know?
I must wear my crown now, the crown that they have forsaken upon me, again I feel the liquid pour from my head as a soldier pushes the crown of thorns on.
I must take this journey it was written before my time that I must. They give me a cross to journey with me to my end. Its heavy father, must I bare their sins? I’m weak father. Is this the sacrifice that is needed? For your love for them is endless and holy but are they capable and worthy of this?
I will take this cross to Golgotha and answer their prayers and obey my father for thy will shall be done.
The weight is over coming me father… I fall and they mock me. It hurts… but I must feel pain. I must sacrifice my life I understand this now.
Mother? I see her father or is it her? The redness of blood in my eyes is making it hard to see. I feel that it is her, oh Mother don’t cry for it is a better and heavenly place that I will soon attend.
Who is this… The soldiers have pulled a man to aid me for the weight has slowed my progress and delaying my coming of the time. Simon… for you do not know who you are helping but in the end heaven will be yours as well as for everyone else.
The pain my father is unbearable why am I forsaken to go through this? They are just lost and sinful souls not caring not loving of your forgiveness and love. The pain!
A woman… oh the soft feel of the cloth she is using to wipe the blood and sweat from my face. Who are you my child but she can’t hear me for I’m too winded. The soldiers push her back and I hear a named called from the crowd, Veronica… Now I understand father. Veronica forever will you see my face upon the cloth.
Out of strength, I can’t move, my flesh dripping in blood as I watch it hit the ground as I myself fall again.
Is this a dream father for I see my love, I see her crying along with two other women of names I do not know. Mary Magdalene don’t cry for me for I know this must be done. There could never be us in this world not for the course my father has set before me.
I must move on, forward I push with knees given out I hit once again the hard dirt ground. I can’t take this pain and mocking of your son much longer… help me father.
I rise as I know soon I will to the eyes of all, I rise to my feet and show them that even the son of the lord can strive and march to my foreseeable end.
I’m stripped naked but only a cloth to cover my manhood. I stand in front of this crowd who still forsake me as the savior of their sins. They will never understand humans’ father of the price I must pay to let them in, to let them be forgiven.
The weight of the cross now lies in the dirt. I don’t fight the given out come as the soldiers place me on the cross. Arms stretched my feet crossed I wait for what I know will come.

Father take me now! The steel crushing my wrist bone as the first nail drills into the wood is I know part of the price but is seeing your son die worth it!? Father NO!!
The second nail cuts the skin and bone in one hit and drives into the wood…
Father I have nothing more to give to mankind…
The last nail goes into my feet and nothing of the pain I can feel. There is nothing more of pain in my body that I can give. I’ve seen the horror of man and what they are capable father and if any have faith in me then this is the right course of action. Please take me home soon.
I can feel them lifting the cross up high but I can’t put dream or real into its right place…
“Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do!”
I see as I look upon my dying flesh the darkness that last for hours and the very few that loved me still crying over my body…
I will be back my children… I will.

By

Troy D Bowden

Oct 21, 2012

Open Your Door

Open Your Door

Cry your soul away in my arms, shed your soul of the past and let me in.

Look without fear as I hold your hand.

Give me the smile I love and the kiss of joy.

I can see the love sometimes in your eyes, it is like it is behind a closed door and there is no why to open it.

Don't hold back any longer come forward to me, come forward my love.

You don't know how much you mean to me and my heart but don't be afraid nothing more will hurt you I promise.

I will be your knight the one who will forever protect you from any force of evil.

I'll be your dreams, I'll be anything your heart wishes for, just please let me in.

No one will never know what my heart says to me and I guess no one will never know, not even you.

So hear the cry and feel the pain, I'm in love with you, always have and always will.

Please my love open your door for I'm the one you feel knocking at night, the one who has forever been in love with you.

By Troy David Bowden

Just Once

"Time may go and dreams will end but my love will go on."

Do you believe in fate and in everything in life has a meaning?

I do and I'll tell you why.

Just Once

Searching and looking taking every road I know and still nothing.

Asking for help and direction to go but to go where.

My heart lost and looking for love.

Many suns and moons, stars and dreams and still nothing.

Running into faces of masked worlds.

And making things up just to fill a need.

But my heart knew that they were just make believe.

Was it fate that we met or Gods will?

All I know is that you are a heaven gift with your smile and your voice.

How you believe in everything has a meaning.

And so many times did I want to kiss your lips and hold you in my arms.

And to be happy that my heart could be filled with love.

Once in a life time I do believe that destiny comes and when it does I would hold it forever.

To tell, to pour out your heart and cry out every word.

To say and scream that I love you, that I hope you hear.

Fate,

Fate that is a word that controls us.

Fate a power of its own.

You have come into my life and for some reason I can't get you out of my head.

How we talked and laughed and how I made you smile.

And the look in your eyes it was like a new world to me.

A world I hope and pray that I can be a part of.

Fate brought us together and it wasn't a accident it was a sign.

A sign that what you wish for can happen.

And what you pray for at night will come true.

Just once I ask, just once.

Once to be in love.

Once to cry again.

In this void of time and space...just once.

This didn't just happen...us meeting.

And now fate will lead me to your arms.

And fate will show me the way.

The way to your soul.

The way to your heart.

And as I dream in your arms of love.

And say thank you to the stars above.

I look into your eyes and I know then that I love you.

And that I have loved you...forever.

One tear falls to the earth and in it carries all my saddens and fear.

For no more will I look.

For no more will I cry.

For I have just once fell in love with you.

And it was fate that brought us together.

By Troy David Bowden

"Fate the endless dreams of a wish upon the stars."

Hidden Truth

HIDDEN TRUTH

For you need to know, know the truth. For it has been hidden inside my heart lost in its own world. Long has it been there and waiting for the time. You need to know how I feel for I can't go on unless you know. Many of times have I thought to say this but my mind couldn't put it to words. My heart wanted to scream it but you couldn't hear it. The look of your eyes blocked most of what I wanted to say. You are the one I've wanted to love, the one I've cried over nights for and the one who I'd be there for. The only love for my heart, the only love for my soul. The smile of joy you have can never leave my mind and the kiss of memories stays with my heart as the same. Fall in love with me as I for you and let us share this together as we walk hand and hand. For let the truth be known that I love you more then the world and as far as the stars. And in the look in your eyes I hope I see the same because I've hidden the truth long enough now. And I want this love to burn like a flame and hold us together.....FOREVER.

By Troy David Bowden

Why You

Why You

In the mist of the air we are locked into each other's eyes. Lost in the moment of love I ask myself the question why? Why did I fall in love with you? Is it the way you look at me with those care eyes of joy or is it the way you talk to me, soft with such promise of love. It is no matter I guess but still why?

Do you remind me of someone I know in another world in another time? Did I see you in a dream long ago in my sleep? Still this is a question, why?

We are so different, our worlds are not of the same. So little we have to share but yet the love is so strong the hand of God couldn't break it.

You take my heart away and travel it to another world. My life is empty without you and still I ask myself why?

What makes you special, your smile, kiss, look, your touch on my body as we lie in bed, what?

I guess that is the answer; it doesn't matter why I love you or why you're the one. I just know you are everything I need and more. You are the one to take me away so my soul can fly free as the wind. And the one to hold me tight and watch me cry.

I'm glad it's why you because no one else can make me feel the way you do, in love with you.

By Troy David Bowden

Pledge

Pledge

I want you, everymorning when the sun comes up my heart is all ready with you. I need you as the bee to the flower or as sun to moon. Days will never end, nights will be pure darkness in my mind if my soul can't have you.

You are my ray of gold rich and beautiful, hold my hand, make love to me under the stars, I've fallen in love with you that's all I know.

Never go, never leave, my heart will fall, my mind will break, you hold me together with just one kiss. The smile is a wish your body of a dream, just stay with me in love.

Walks roads with me never traveled before as we make new pages in our book of love. Let us not look back but ahead only. Forever I do swear that I love you with all my heart and soul, and the day our book is closed is the day I die. Let me take you away to a world of dreams and love, of flowers and gold, oceans and skies of blue because God as my witness I love you.

By Troy David Bowden

Silver Road

Silver Road

Walk with my heart and hold my hand, travel with me to a distance land.

Don't look back but only in my eyes and see the glow before it dies.

We'll walk in love with thoughts in the minds as forever as time flies.

Distance we'll not care, and only without you will I fear.

Love the road with me, for love it forever.

Stay with me my love, for we in Gods heart know we're good together.

Nothing can stop this, nothing can stop my heart.

You are a piece of it, you are a part fo my heart.

This road is the love we have, forever and far with no end.

No time and no stop just going, going in the wind.

I say this to you, you with my heart that I'll forever love you like I've done from the start.

By Troy David Bowden